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one sided love? how am i totally ridiculously indeniably in love with a girl and weve been friends for over 7 years. Thats not the surprising part, ive loved her for probly five years now but am just coming to terms with it in the last two years. I didnt think it would be a mistake but i told her i loved her probly about a year ago and all the replies have been, danny i appreciate your feelings but if had feelings for you i think i would have felt them already. Now dont think this is a childhood middle-school crush, i have been this depressed, non-emotional, shell of a guy who doesnt have any love for himself and that fact is only making living like this harder. Im sure many people have the same problem but i cannot express my true feelings to any human except for her so when i hang out with friends, go drinking and what not i put up my front of happiness that ive had on for the last 3 years. i am too embarrassed to go to take therapy even though thats what she says i should do and i even think it would really help. i cant do it. for some reason. Thats a sum up of my life for the past five years so... if any helpful comments or advice.. please post.